My Poems...

Hello everybody,

Now, this may seem like a ridiculous blog and u have every right to feel so 'cuz i'm just messing around with the options to see how good it is... but meanwhile just so you don't get too bored i'll post some of my poems and u can read em if you want to... they may not be all that good but... i dunno... just read it and see!

Kisses From Beyond

Flickered candles and entwined roses

Poisons the air in the motionless room

With strange mirages

In my loneliness,

That I despair the most

I hope you’d be blowing me kisses

And I’d do the same for you too

Even if the earth falls to pieces

The green stains of grass and moss

On your plain summer dress,

The words you first spoke

And the endless memories together

All these I will cherish

For that is all that’s left of you!

Waking The Demon

A cold, blunt and loathsome stare

Stood out amongst a crowd of deceitful smiles

A charred mix of melancholy oozing beneath

Filling my lungs with gorging heat

Tempted to waking the demon within

I tread past quickly avoiding a scene

Shunting his anger all over me

He shut my way out leaving me scornful

I feel the hair on my back rise

Waiting for the abrupt change

Sweat and heat shakes me with anger

Leaving me dangerous and unapproachable

Letting me go would be a wiser choice,

But no, he wouldn’t! He believes in fate

And fate is a funny thing

Because it always ends in grief..!

Where is the way out?

I listen to the whispers inside

And for once wished

I wouldn’t be alone again

I resent,

Yet I can’t give in

I have learnt to listen to the voices in my soul

Burrowing my sorrow

Deep inside this wretched and empty world

I am selfish,

I am wrong,

I am brutal,

I am sick,

I am resented

And this earthly figure has every reason to hate me

I dream of my past, regrets and confessions

Every wink of my life

The day only ends with remorse

And the worst part of my day is

Tomorrow it’ll start all over again

And I won’t even realize it just like everyone else

Lurking in this miserable world

I have become one of them

Just another happy fool

The Devil In Me

I am a hole in the sky

Void with feelings

And shallow in thoughts

Short of friends

And tall of misery

A deep grunting snarl on my face

Tells me I'm evil

what am I to do?

Where is the angel in me that should've guided me along?

Oh! That's right. I killed it and I know not why!

I am the hole in the sky

Mess with me not, for I'll kill your soul too

With nothing more than an injured smile

Drifting on edgy waters

The earth is filled with only three kinds of people

strangers you never wanna meet

the good guys whose memories you want to cherish forever

and people you know but wish you didn't

I unfortunately am of the third kind

Is there really more to me than what I am now?

Maybe! Or maybe I am just as insignificant as I look like

And maybe I am just as shallow too

But I still am human and I only wish

You could see the pain and anguish behind my eyes

And forgive me for the things I've done

And mostly take me back atleast as a friend

Give Room To Breathe

My eyes met yours

they seemed tender and elegant

powerful yet vulnerable

I felt my finger tips go numb

for the very first time

Your presence gave me chills

running down my spine

I felt weird, queasy and confused

I couldn't respire for a moment

not because of the cold

but because of your presence

so graceful, it left me chocking for breath

I knew at that instant,

I'd never get over you

I was captivated

and for once vindicated

Slow Spinning Redemption

I wake up panting,

Sweating and heaving loudly

With tears rolling down

The faint scars of my cheek

This is just the third time

I wake up in one night crying

Crying for help, shouting out

For the paramedics to drug me down

And heave me out of this misery

I cry,

I weep,

I moan,

I choke,

I bleed,

I drink,

I cry again

And yet again

I have no creed

And I hate myself

I scream for alcohol,

Lots and lots of it

I'm disgraced of myself

And getting high is my only path to bliss

Not one day passes by without

An evident attempt to kill myself

But I wasn't always this bad...

The Redeemed

I live in a valley

Under the shadows of a reaper

and the living among dead

I hurt myself in the struggle

to redeem my soul and fear no evil

And I quickly learn to disguise myself

To be invisible; for without it

My very existence seem clouded

And dark as a lethal black hole

'Tis not gravity or oxygen that keeps me alive

It is hope; hope that things will change

And change for the best

For the years to come,

may it not be filled

with momentary but eternal bliss!